March 2011
note to self:
you need 150.00 available on april 15th. you also need about 70.00 asap. and soon another 60.00 probably within the next few weeks. oh. and you also need to have money for everything else too. geez. showtek couldn’t have said it better though.. “spending all my money on dope and extreme high priced tickets. but in the end, it’s all worth it.” except i’m not spending...
“i like to live in my own world. fuck regular life, fuck a 9 to 5 job. i’m...”
i had
the best night of my life last night. the vibe was beyond amazing, i was with people that i fucking love all night, and i felt the best i have ever felt. and showtek totally killed it! oh my goshhhh. along with a billion other amazing sets.. i felt amazing last night. me and ryley danced like we were fucking nuts, it was matty’s and allen’s first rave, i gave a million awesome shows...
one day,
all of this is going to be okay. all these little day to day flaws, and all the stuff that upsets me. one day, it’s going to be nothing but faint memories, if that at all. i’m going to forget about all of this, and most everyone i know right now. and nothing that matters now will matter next year, let alone next month. we stress ourselves so much on the present and the past… but...
I feel like I couldn't handle a relationship,
But I miss feeling taken care of. And feeling important to someone and being cuddly and being so happy. I felt that way once but it was ripped apart. And why can’t I find someone new? I don’t understand. So many questions and no one to give me answers. I just miss feeling loved.
Whiny post, it’s just been an emotional day. But on the bright side, tonight is going to be one of...
weird mood.
maybe i just need some sleep. or maybe i just want a hug.
most of the shit i read on tumblr
is about people being upset. i’m so glad i have no one to upset me, or bring me down, or ruin my day. being alone may seem depressing to the average person, but it brings me more joy than people that think they “have it all” could ever feel.
so much to say,
and no one to say it to.
my lack
of empathy has gotten me more places than caring ever could. explain that to me.
i don't want to have feelings for anyone
because i don’t ever want to have to explain myself. i just want to do whatever i want, whenever i want. i’m enough of a handful for myself anyways, haha.
need sleep.
need sleep. need sleep. need sleep. worn out would be an understatement. i wonder if i would ever get to sleeping if my body was as restless as my mind has been lately.
fact of the day:
the most fascinating things can become reality when you open yourself up to the idea of understanding the things that the mind can’t fathom.
if you want to know the facts, then you have to know the truth. part of knowing the truth is being capable of handling it. so, if you can’t accept truth, then you can’t accept fact. and if you can’t accept fact, then you’re just going to be ignorant.
extremely irritated
with a post i just read. close minded fuckers. DISLIKE.
i hate picking out music to dance to..
so. fucking. much. all the songs are like 6 minutes. that just won’t do with the lungs i have.
so incredibly excited
for caffeine. <3 i’m about to have one of the best nights of my life. 7 dayyyssss.
i am
a little confused as to why this is where i feel most at home. but to be honest with you, i’m not complaining in the least bit. i’m also a little mad at myself for not doing something that i should have. i will next weekend. ;)
i love my life. so much.
i don't get
how i can be so caring and so incredibly careless at the same time.
don't you hate when you don't proofread shit...
i do. and i feel stupid after.
i'm looking at
this world as more of a playground then battlegrounds. and i’m about to walk on the monkey bars.
Reblog if you live in this boring ass place.
lisacaroline:
always reblog
i hate lying about things that i shouldn’t have to lie about. i think people should appreciate the fact that someone is telling them the truth and being real and honest with them rather than taking it offensively. if we could all just be honest and appreciate honesty, this would would be a lot better.
oh, and by the way
you don’t even cross my mind anymore, and i am so fucking happy about it. :)
i never know what i want, or what i need, or what is best for me. i’m a very confused person, but it doesn’t stop me from making my own decisions. i see so many people living their lives 100% for someone else and i don’t get it. i’ve lived like that, and i know that. but now that i am older, i could never do that. i could never change myself so drastically and not do things...
it’s kind of funny how people will always tell me, “you could have any guy you wanted to.” but, i never have the guy i want to.
it’s hard to make things happen when you don’t have the balls to put your foot in the door.
i need to do laundry so bad. i’m at the point where i’m buying new clothes just so i have something to wear.
today, i went and saw hall pass with my dad. walking into the theater, i realized what a bad idea it probably was to see that movie with my dad. i warned him and said that there would probably be something really bad that’ll make this super awkward. and i think the huge, black dick that was completely out for like 5 minutes did the trick. story of my day, in a nutshell.
every time i think about how i don’t have a skrillex ticket, my heart breaks a little bit. and it reminds me to get my caffeine business figured out.
how crazy would i be
if i didn’t sleep? just making all of these long days one continuous day. i’m already losing my head with the separation.. imagine if there wasn’t one.
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