April 2011
why am i doing this to myself right now.. it is making me sick to my stomach. why does this have to be so fucking hard. God, i will never understand why this has to be so damn difficult. i would do anything to feel better. literally anything.
there goes my day. i just feel like crying and pouting and sleeping. fuck everything.
i knew
this was going to happen. i hate relying on other people.
my eyes are hella watering.
they do this all the fucking time now and it’s the most annoying thing ever. no, i’m not crying, my eyes just get super dry and tear up a bunch. and it always, without fail, ruins my makeup.
hate so much. aggghhhh. someone make it stop!
WHY AM I STILL AWAKE?
i don't understand what's going on with me these...
i’m starting to care too much, again. and i almost called you today because i needed a friend. how does that even make sense? i think i’m just going crazy.
talking about old memories with lachlan
and how i spent 20 dollars on that silly plush pug wearing blue for you because i wasn’t good enough to win it.
i miss when times were good. i really miss those days.
my mom's boyfriend is here.
and it sucks. i was walking around in my underwear, as usual, and she told me to go put pants on.
bullshit.
i'm not perfect, but i wish i could find someone...
fairy tale fantasies.
when i really weigh it out,
the right decision is obvious. but for some reason, it doesn’t change my mind. i wonder when i will decide to be smarter.
but regardless, today ended up being okay at best. i just want to go to bed now.
adventure time has turned into my life.
now it’s just adventure life.
Yawn
Why is it so hard for me to wake up these days? But on the bright side, today will be a fun day :)
time for bed.
cuddling with my boo tonight. <3 i haven’t seen him in two days! :( we have so much cuddling to catch up on :)
goodnight, world. thank you for the nice day, God.
-.-
i just spent 400.00 on my hair and i feel like crying.
i am exhausted.
i feel like i need to dedicate a day to sleep here pretty soon. i am always so tired. i also need to clean out my car super bad. like, really bad. haha.
a lot of things have happened in my life that i haven’t understood and haven’t liked either. it all has gotten me down so far that i couldn’t picture my life ever being good enough without it. and when i sit down and really take a look at my life, i realize that it is not what i expected. it’s not anything like i pictured it to be, it’s not even very good in a lot of...
happy easter!
you can keep wishing for the best
but we both know she’ll never be me.
i hope one day you'll understand,
a girl on your arm won’t make you a man.
FAIL
this diet is making my boobs shrink. >:O
is 430.00 too much to spend on a purse?
because i fucking want this so bad.
there's not a lot for you to give if you're giving...
cause this love is all i have to give.
i won’t replace my heart for warmer days. i know the truth, and you know it too.
my body
picked a really shitty time to feel better because i have nothing to do now. stinky! :( someone be spontaneous and drive to kansas with me or something.
you know,
i think we’d make a pretty good team. even though we are polar opposites.
i think that it is a personal goal of mine
to have an on call massage therapist one day. so many of my problems would be solved if i just had someone to rub my back and neck more often.
truth-
all i really want is a nice dude that i can cuddle with and not have to worry about them trying to stick their hand down my pants. is that so much to ask?! just because we’re snuggling doesn’t mean i wanna do it. i just like to cuddle. :(
Most days I just wonder if you think about me half...
jackinicole:
And then I get this shitty feeling in my gut when I realize you don’t.
it's hard not to laugh at this.
i don’t know why it’s so funny, but it is. don’t be dramatic and rude to me and expect me to forgive you like nothing happened. i hate stupid drama and i hate people. i’ve gotten to the point where i am so careless, i don’t even mind this. you don’t wanna know me? cool. then get the fuck out of my life.
haha. today has been so dramatic so far. i need to get...
i just set up my voicemail box
and i have 15 messages -.-
I have been thinking about everything
A lot lately. Not entirely sure as to why, but I’m sure soon enough I’ll find some reasoning behind it. I think I’m finally seeing and appreciating how many steps I have taken forward.. But at the same time I feel like I’m not really moving at all. I’m kind of stuck on one idea, but you can’t really blame me for it. Why would I think any differently? I’ve...
good day
so time for bed though. exhausted. goodnight!
Reblog if you didn't smoke weed today.
curlylikesgirls:
truth is-
today has been so crappy. almost makes me wish i had some form of desire to smoke weed so i could be stoked on the day. but i hate it way too much to even imagine getting near it, haha.
i think it’s kind of cute how stoked people get for 4/20 when they already smoke weed everyday to start. it’s like having a second birthday or something for them! people are nuts. and i may hate the...
today
was a little nuts. but i think i’m okay with it.
sleep time! <3
why
DOES EVERYTHING HAVE TO BE SO FUCKING STUPID SOMETIMES.
i’m pissed. i’m tired of getting pissed off all the time because everything always gets all fucked up without fail. people suck, i need to become a recluse again.
wow.
today just got lame. i hate unreliable people again!
so,
i guess my job is doing shitty financially, so i get to go home whenever i want for the next week. stoked, but then not because my check is going to look like shit. :x
but on another note, it is a beautiful day out. hopefully i can take advantage of it and have some fun. ;)
note to self:
next time you’re upset or angry, just hang out with your little brother for a while.
he can always cheer me up. i love my little man.
sometimes,
i don’t know why i waste my time with anyone. people are so unreliable. i literally feel like basically everyone i have talked to today has totally bummed me out.
over it.
annoyed.
and i have a fucking headache.
